So, it’s been a while since I last posted. Some things have happened . . .
To a farm!
While I’m usually sharing my list of personal goals for the year on January 1, we spent New Year’s Day getting settled into our new home instead, and I have felt the Lord urging me to simplify. Hence no blog posts. I’ve been preoccupied with other things.
However, I would be remiss if I didn’t share what God has laid on my heart instead of “Exercise 3 days a week” and “Read 50 books this year.” He has been showing me that I need to be more generous with my self, my time, my money, and my energy. God wants me to be more transparent with other believers because He’s a God of relationships, and we need each other.
One way I’ve felt led to be generous is in showing hospitality: to open our home to others as a place of fellowship, love, and encouragement.
“Therefore encourage one another and build each other up…”
1 Thessalonians 5:11
While these plans of hosting parties and dinners may sound wonderful and exciting for you extroverts who derive energy and joy from other people, they scare me. I feel sick at my stomach as I consider hosting people in our home. A play date with a close friend is fine, but inviting acquaintances into our house, into my personal space, into my life is not easy.
I am an introvert. I like quiet. I enjoy my time alone. Being around people is healthy and beneficial, but it sucks the energy out of me. Probably because of the ugly areas in myself that I don’t want exposed: my pride, my bad temper, my perfectionism, the willfulness of my children, the dust and grime that adorn my home, the clutter that never goes away. I’d prefer people have a more pristine view of who I am and how I live. But we all know that’s not reality.
Yet, living in isolation is not healthy. It’s easy for me to withdraw socially, especially now that I literally am isolated in the country. But God does not want me to continue to walk down this path. I’ve lived with what Paul calls “a spirit of timidity” for so long that I don’t know what it’s like to be bold in my faith. However, I know and believe that what God calls us to do, He will see through, and so I will be obedient to His call for me to be more generous with myself and transparent to others.
While it’s hard for me to let others see my weaknesses, I need to step out in faith because God has called me to. This life is tough. We all need to spur one another on and not live in isolation, even though I would like more than anything to be a recluse most days. God wants me to share myself with other people who may need encouragement. He also knows that I too will be encouraged and blessed, and He wants to bless us.
“For I will pour water on the thirsty land,
and streams on the dry ground;
I will pour My Spirit upon your offspring,
and My blessing on your descendants.”
I know I’m off to a little late start, but this year I am endeavoring to open myself up more to others. One way is by opening up our home. Another way is by getting to know someone new. My aim is to listen and observe so that I will know who God intends me to invite in and to be obedient to Him that I may draw closer to fellow believers as well as those who need the love of Christ.
Is the Lord calling you to something this year? What is it? What steps can you take to walk in faith and be obedient?
May God bless you richly in 2016 as you endeavor to do His will!