“I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.”
Has there been a time in your life when you’ve felt stuck in the waiting room? Have you ever felt like God has forgotten about you as you wait?
- Maybe you’re waiting for that much-longed for child.
- Maybe your health or the health of someone you love has not improved like you prayed it would.
- Maybe financial distress has caused you to question God’s provision and care for you.
- Or maybe you’re waiting for a prodigal son or daughter to return home.
We’ve all experienced the waiting room. It isn’t a fun place to be. There are moments of frustration, pacing, questioning, doubt, even resentment when life doesn’t work out quite the way we thought it would. Yet even when we’re waiting, the Lord is good. I admit that sometimes it’s hard for me to see His goodness when I’m doing battle in the trenches. But just like counting our blessings when we feel discontent, if we will look for the little nuggets of God’s goodness in the waiting, it will help us to “be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.”
As a mom of 4 little ones, I’ve had to put some of my dreams on hold. Our responsibilities as wives, mothers, teachers, and whatever else we need to be in any given day often preclude us from doing those things we excel at and really desire to do. I’m not angry or resentful because I’m doing what God has called me to do.
Yet I don’t think we should downplay the gifts God gives us because He does want us to use them for His glory nor should we view motherhood as drudgery to endure until the kids grow up, go to school, become independent, etc.
And so we wait, trusting in the Lord and in His perfect timing.
“I wait for the Lord, my soul waits, and in His word I put my hope.”
At times, I’ve felt frustrated by my present circumstances because it’s hard to see the light at the end of the long tunnel of babies, toddlers and preschoolers. I’m consumed with teaching kindness, changing diapers, instilling character, drilling math facts, memorizing verses, modeling how to clean the toilet properly, and so on and so on. But every now and then God gives me tiny glimpses of that light when my kids “sleep in” or spend the night at their grandparents’ house, and I’m able to “see the goodness of the Lord.” In those precious moments, I pursue my passions with gusto knowing that my time is limited.
Even while we’re waiting, though, God is good. It takes real effort, but once I sit down and reflect, I can clearly see how God is blessing me in the waiting. For one, as I spend more and more time with my children and less time on my self, God is growing me in my love for each of them. I’m not a natural mother in that loving my kids does not come easily for me, so I have had to pray and work extra hard at finding joy in motherhood. But God has been so faithful.
God has also provided moments of quiet and rest when I have most needed them. When I’m frazzled and at my wit’s end, He always comes through, providing the solace I crave. Additionally, God has brought amazing Christian women into my life to encourage, bolster, and spur me on in my walk. Those friendships have given me the stamina I need to endure with grace and dignity.
In the waiting, God refines our character. He works on our hearts, chiseling away the discontent and filling it in with joy. If we let Him, He will help us to see what’s truly important right now, even if it’s just waiting on His perfect timing. In the waiting, He continually provides above and beyond what we need.
Are you in waiting right now? Is there some aspect of your life that has not panned out quite as you had hoped? Can you see God working in your life even as you’re waiting?
Note: This isn’t a post expressing disdain for raising children or being a homemaker. Both are dreams that the Lord has allowed to come true in my life and for which I am eternally grateful. I don’t want to rush my children to grow up and leave the nest so I can pursue my passions. My point is that in some aspects of my life, I’m in waiting — as I’m sure you can relate — and as I wait, I am trying to “be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.”